Weirdness...

Really... Scary somtimes... It gets to you... I dunno why... I'm getting weirder and weirder every moment... I don't wanna go back to school and see Fish Lips and Ah Gua and all the people I hate... I just did my Sejarah... I dunno if I wanna decorate the Library or not, actually... Pet seems like he wants to... But I don't want to have to decorate it with Saito... It'll be scary... But that Pet say maybe... He dunno... I oso dunno... Dunno about TN... Saito sure wan to do wan... Haix... Decisions, decisons... My mom seems to be thinking about sending me to some self development thingy with FCD and Jason... I dunno if I want to or not... I just know that if I don't manage to play Marriage D'Amour flawlessly, I'll kill myself. My right hand is fine... It's just my left hand... I'm learning to play it myself... Without a teacher... I know how to play Secret by Jay Chou quite well already... Which is a great thing, cause I only got the song on Wednesday... I'm proud of myself... Now... Hopefully... Abraham Lincoln was a lawyer before he became President of the United States... Wee... I wanna eat peaches... But I lazy to open my can... I dunno how, anyway... Always FCD's kakak open for me wan... Lalalala~ I'm a sad person... I'm hungry... But I don't feel like eating... Having many new books to read does this to me... Hopefully I'll be able to lose some fats by this... ^.^ I have 2 more to go... I read The Demon Lexicon... That guy is weird... At least he's hot... And has abs... But I still love Tabi the most and hate that Ah Gua the most... Nice, huh? I feel like playing in the rain... I could lie under the rain forever... Cold... Wet... Alone... Best place for me... Besides bookshops... They're my most favourite places in the world... Quiet... No weird couples snogging between the shelves... No ripped books... Wee... Run around in the rain... But it's not raining... Sad... Twirl around and around... Get dizzy... No need to think about anything... Especially him... Anything but him... Just not him... My mind won't listen to me... I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT HIM!! Just not him... Not him... My heart breaks every time I think about him... I want a marshmallow... I only forget about him when I play my piano and read... That's why I read so much... I've been playing my piano a lot recently... As in, a lot... My mind is spinning out of control... Feeling sentimental... And melanchonic... Can't think straight...