Won't won't won't

I won't think about him anymore. I won't. Every time I start thinking about him, I'll go play my piano or read my books. So I won't think about him anymore... ... That guy from my old school is right, actually. Emotions are a weakness... So the best way to protect yourself is to not feel anything. Logic really. Don't feel anything and anything that happens won't affect you. Good? Yes. Don't ask. Really. I'm calmer now. Serenity and tranquility... As Claire would say... Perverse men... Useless buggers. Spin spin spin. Head gets dizzy. Skip skip skip. I go crazy. I am, really. Haha. Laughing at myself now.

Weirdness...

Really... Scary somtimes... It gets to you... I dunno why... I'm getting weirder and weirder every moment... I don't wanna go back to school and see Fish Lips and Ah Gua and all the people I hate... I just did my Sejarah... I dunno if I wanna decorate the Library or not, actually... Pet seems like he wants to... But I don't want to have to decorate it with Saito... It'll be scary... But that Pet say maybe... He dunno... I oso dunno... Dunno about TN... Saito sure wan to do wan... Haix... Decisions, decisons... My mom seems to be thinking about sending me to some self development thingy with FCD and Jason... I dunno if I want to or not... I just know that if I don't manage to play Marriage D'Amour flawlessly, I'll kill myself. My right hand is fine... It's just my left hand... I'm learning to play it myself... Without a teacher... I know how to play Secret by Jay Chou quite well already... Which is a great thing, cause I only got the song on Wednesday... I'm proud of myself... Now... Hopefully... Abraham Lincoln was a lawyer before he became President of the United States... Wee... I wanna eat peaches... But I lazy to open my can... I dunno how, anyway... Always FCD's kakak open for me wan... Lalalala~ I'm a sad person... I'm hungry... But I don't feel like eating... Having many new books to read does this to me... Hopefully I'll be able to lose some fats by this... ^.^ I have 2 more to go... I read The Demon Lexicon... That guy is weird... At least he's hot... And has abs... But I still love Tabi the most and hate that Ah Gua the most... Nice, huh? I feel like playing in the rain... I could lie under the rain forever... Cold... Wet... Alone... Best place for me... Besides bookshops... They're my most favourite places in the world... Quiet... No weird couples snogging between the shelves... No ripped books... Wee... Run around in the rain... But it's not raining... Sad... Twirl around and around... Get dizzy... No need to think about anything... Especially him... Anything but him... Just not him... My mind won't listen to me... I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT HIM!! Just not him... Not him... My heart breaks every time I think about him... I want a marshmallow... I only forget about him when I play my piano and read... That's why I read so much... I've been playing my piano a lot recently... As in, a lot... My mind is spinning out of control... Feeling sentimental... And melanchonic... Can't think straight...

I'm the worst person on earth.

I really am... I got Puay San into trouble... Wakakaka... I wrote about what she told me and Ash read my blog... So she scold Puay San... i just never say anything... I'm so evil... Weekeekeekeekee... Me, FCD and Jason formed a Hate Her club... The Brotherhood... Damn them... They can't resist callin me a "man"... Yestersday FCD's mom's Bday! We go restaurant eat... Sadly, no one bought a cake, so after the party Jason's mom, bro, sis and Ash go buy a cake... They said they wouldn't go to JJ... So we didn't go along... We were in my Akong's house... We stayed at home and watched I am Legend... Then when they came back, Ash was the 1st person to step into the house. She went like : "Hi! We're back!!" And guess what she was holding... A chocolate shake thingy... With the STARBUCKS logo on it! Then we were like, WTH!! They went to Starbucks! And didn't even buy anything for us! And you know what the worst part was?! She bought a freaking LARGE!! Even I didn't buy a large Caramel Macchiato with FCD's cash! I bought regular!! Then me, Jason and FCD got pissed and went upstairs to FCD's room to watch I am Legend on FCD's TV. We formed the Hate Her Club... And FCD said : "To the Brotherhood!" Shit! But one good thing is that they got Peach cake! I went downstairs to get cake for them... The peaches were go good... But the cake was like, dry. Ok lu... But not that good... Hey, look! The Ah Gua got RC! ... ... ... I'm not talking to him. Anymore... Forever... I hate him... Sign in when I'm not online la! Go die la you! Stupid Ah Gua... I got more books at JJ yesterday! Yippee! Wakakaka... I'm starting to sound like that guy from my old school... Weird... I didn't go swimming today... No mood...

I love cake...

Really, I do. And Blogger agrees with me. Cause there's this cake thing on top there with they're logo... I love to bake it and eat it. That's another reason I'm fat... Weekeekeekeekee... Yesterday I went to KLCC... So damn nice... We went by train with my mom's friend and her children. My dad never come. He had to work... T.T We went to that Petroscience thingy there... I go so many times liao. So, sorta sien lu... Lucky they never have those retarded experiment shows... I hate them... Then I go out early with my mom... Got a bunch of annoying malay boys behind us in the queue... Shit la them... Hate malays... Then I go Kinokuniya! Yes! I really love that place... It's like a heaven for me... I only got to get 5 books when the grown-ups say have to go home liao. Sad rite... I never even go upstairs to the music section... T.T But at least I got Syren... I'm gonna rub it in FCD's face later... Yesterday my cousins come stay over... Puay San and Puay Nee... Puay Nee sleep very early this time... Dunno why... She usually kacau us then sleep very late wan... Me and Puay San talk until very late... She tell me about the people in her school and stuff... I tell her about the Ah Gua... I tell her everything between me and the Ah Gua... Tell liao I feel better already... ^.^ Dunno why... For some reason... My bro bought some retarded comics called "Oka"... Like lame oni... He say very nice... Weird... The weird game cards that came with it are staring at me now... Just sitting on the table beside me... Creepy... You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night, you make me wanna hold you to the morning light... Paiseh... I'm listening to You Make Me Wanna by Blue... Last time kids that time always sing wan... Love it... I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight, you're the 1st and last ting on my mind... Oh... I lost it again... Paiseh... I told Uncle Ben Ee about the Ah Gua... I dunno if it's wise or not... But still... I have given up on that Ah Gua... So whatever lu... Now I got new books, so I'm happy... But I hate myself... That freaking book was THERE and I didn't notice it!! I'll never forgive myself... Ever... I read 3 books liao... 2 more to go... Lucky Syren thick... Or I will read all finish to fast... Sad right... Everybody in Ash's school knows she likes Jeremy... But he doesn't like her back... Puay San check with him liao. She got his hotmail from Ash's acc and ask him. He say he dun like her... Wakakakaka... WILL SOMEBODY COME ONLINE!!! THAT FREAKING AH GUA NEVER ON WAN! HE'S PISSING ME OFF! I FIX HIS FACEBOOK FOR HIM AND HE DOESN'T EVEN BOTHER TO GO ONLINE!! I HATE HIM!! DIE! DIE, ALL THE AH GUAS OF THE WORLD!! ... ... ... ... Sorry there. I'm just angry no one is online... Don't say anything...

Tralala~

Wee... I'm listening to Thanks For The Memories by Fall Out Boy... There are a bunch of evil stupid chimpos there... Then the guy smashing the equipment... Plus another MV of Fall Out Boy... With vampires... ^.^ Me hart! I'm gonna bake cakes later... 3, in fact... ... Don't think left or right... Think straight people... I'm baking them with my cousins... No, not FCD... My other cousins... Ash, Puay San and Puay Nee... (: Claire edited some photos of our family yesterday... My head looks so big in some of them... FCD's pic is on too... He was horrified... Ash is here too... In my house... Wakakakaka... Nobody online wan... That guy in my old school has to go to school... Cause he attends Hin Hua secondary... Sad guy... He yesterday sign in liao then chat wit me for 5 seconds and then his status set to busy... So I don't kacau him lu... His MSN PM all about not being weak, emotions are useless blah blah blah, yadda yadda yadda... Wait... I knew it!! He just doesn't want to admit it... Remember that GF who broke up with him? I think she got another BF already... And now that guy's really sad... Wakakakaka... My plant on Restaurant City is going to be harvestable in 30 minutes! Wee... I want my phone... But it's spoiled... ): Weekeekee... Haha... I'm psycho...

Facials are scary...

Seriously... I had my first facial yesterday... It was scary... FCD had one too... He keep laughing at me... He do before already, of course he not scared la... I first time you know... FCD have to do RM70 wan... Cause he so many pimples... He learned to shave! Wen Chien Kor Kor teach him... So his mustachio is gone... ^.^ The facial thing so geli... The person say my skin very nice... ^.^ I so biao ba... I took like 35 minutes only... FCD took longer than me... By a lot... His "pimple residue" all over his hair and his shirt... he do finish liao his hair in front all stand up... So funny... The pimple thingy was painful... Thank goodness I only a few pimples... Loong the worst... XD Me and Ash go next door kopitiam buy Teh Ais while waiting for him... Then we watch CSI there... Nice weih... I go my Banting Ah Mah house and photostat piano stuff... I finally found the song I was looking for... Plus Jay Chou wan... I got from my cousins... Wee... Finally... FCD was playing his PS3 yesterday... Look nice la that game... Infamous... Anybody hear before? About this guy... Got powers... Electricity... Can heal people also... The dust men look like the cartoon vulture oni... Ice Age that wan... Seriously... ^.^ I wanna cut my hair like boy... But scared I look weird...

We are the champions, my friends...

Hello... I'm back... It's weird... Yesterday I went to Sunway Pyramid and bought, get this, ONLY 1 BOOK. So I very bosong. I go and buy The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown... Ok la... But I like The Da Vinci Code better. I dunno why... But I do... Anyway... 2 days ago got a guy in my old school add my on Facebook. He very weird wan... ^.^ Paiseh if you read this, man... But I don't think he'll read. He dang lazy wan... :P I woke up at 9 this morning. My bro is watching that Sean on TV. You know?? That Sean on D.I.E. Again? The real Sean would be too Ah Gua to go on TV. To know more about the rest of us, go to my old blog. www.rainydaysmakemesmile-riptide.blogspot.com... (: Smile. I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS!!! Mr Darmesh send us those notes I still no mood to read. Paiseh Mr Darmesh. But I really don't feel like it. These few days me and my bro dug up our old Ping Ton comics and read again. ^.^ So nice. Yes! Sean just pushed his dad down the stairs! Haha. Now he's killing his bro... Cool...

Weirdness will prevail...

Really... That was weird... I just came back from Claire's blog... It was weird... Not saying anything... I'm at home with my bro... My parents went out to cut hair or wash hair or something... I'm lying on the floor typing... The TV is on... Wee... My bro is like : "Er...." With a blur blur face just staring at the TV... Wait... Now I wan copy him... Er.... *blur blur face* Nope, he does it beter... I wanna cut my hair to crew cut wan... But mommy dun let... She say cut liao I not pretty... Blek. I oso not pretty, cut dun cut same wan what... Haix... It's a sad life... Now I finally can chat... No one chat with me... I just opened the notes from Mr Darmesh... Weird... I should be a good girl and read them now... But I got no mood...

Fat losing project is in progress... ^.^

Wee... My fat losing project is in progress... I went swimming again today... With the kids of my dad's friend... It was weird... There were a bunch of annoying boys there... So I swim a few laps and stop... Then they go back I only swim again... But at least swim 10 laps like that... ^.^ Then I eat mango ice-cream... So nice... My dad's friend buy wan... After that we go my aunty house for "gathering". Eat lunch there... My dad cook spaghetti... There was a bunch of other stuff too... Wee... I watch TV there and play piano a bit... Then before I go back I do test... The computer take your fingerprints and analyse for you... See your personality and stuff... My aunty do wan. She 1 time do RM300... We family so no need pay... (: Then come back and blah blah blah... Yesterday D.I.E. Again final episode... I like the Sean in the show... He psycho wan... (: The real Sean kanasai wan. My mom say guys named Sean all not good wan... I was like =.=''' swt... The Sean nice lo... He stay in the Mental Hospital in England since he 5 years old because he psycho wan... His parents all never visit him... Only his evil twin older bro Fred visit him... So his bro die he want revenge and yadda yadda yadda... He was cute when he mentally cacat... ^.^ I so evil... Actually his looks ok la... But Tabi is the most leng zai!! ^.^ Love him forever... I found out I'm a genius on the com fingerprint analyser thingy of my aunt's... Yeah... I always knew I'm a genius... No kidding. Really... I'm a genius... I watched a documentary of King Henry VIII yesterday... ^.^ He was the serial wife killer guy... I only watched the last half... So I dunno why he so psycho... Anyway... His 5th wife was perverted... She had an affair with some guy... He executed her... Wee... Henry VIII executed 70000 plus people... He turned into an obese, crippled tyrant! He had a huge saito... Wakakakaka... Notice the significance? Haha... He had to have 4 guys carry him around in a chair cause his leg was crippled... Most people only need 2 people... Wakakakaka... Obese saito guy... Tralala...

Happy Birthday to You...

Wee... Yesterday FCD's dad's birthday... We go Crystal Crown makan... ^.^ Yummy... There's the cake, or should I say cakes, down there...
Wakakakaka... I'm greedy, that's why I'm fat... ^.^ FCD and his parents down there...

Tralala... Me and my Leng Zai daddy... Real wan... FCD's not leng zai... (: Biao Ba...
Grr... I upload that image 3 times liao... Better not delete it again... I have to go Sejarah tuition later... :( Down there is me and FCD...
XDXD He's like retarded... I'm not gonna upload anymore pics... It makes my com go funny... I peeled my dessert pau and it was like, naked.... Weird... There was Peking Duck... The skin was cut off... My bro stupid wan... He dun dare to eat meat cause he scared they will come after him in his sleep... As ghosts... Stupid... So ah gua... I dowan my bro to be ah gua!!

Wee... ^.^

I put Claire and Ben in the same chat room today... But nada... ^.^ Grr... I hate that Ah Gua... He was talking to that... Saito thing like old friends... Angry... Hate him... I confisicated that calculator he was using to do his maths during PJK... He injured his leg so he didn't need to go for PJK... Not that he ever does... He just sits there... Doing nothing... And the weird thing is, he doesn't wear his glasses... LoL... If he's not gonna exercise, wear his glasses la... Anyway... It was actually Ben Jing's so I gave it back to him during recess... Whatever... When was the last time I updated? I forgot... Anyway... My teacher changed my place 2 times in 2 days... At first I was sitting beside the window with Ben on my left, Thiwya in front of me and Loong behind me... But he keep kacauing me so I complain to teacher... Evil rite... So teacher change me to Ben's place and Ben sit in my place, FCD go sit Ah Gua place, Wei Jun sit Pausen place and Pausen sit Wei Jun place... But stupid FCD, Pausen and Claire they all made teacher change my place to sit in front of Claire... 2nd row... BESIDE SAITO!! That is in Wei Jun's place... Den I bosong lo... Because honestly, who would want to sit with that Saito?!?! So I do sour face for teacher to see... Then she cannot take it and switch Saito to Shawn Chin's place. So now Shawn Chin sit beside me... Our family is sitting in one line already... Hobbes, Me, Claire, then FCD. One line straight down. Now all we need is Chris... Hm... But I still a bit bosong... Cuz I liked sitting next to Ben... Sorta... Cause he like... Funny... And a bit gay... Plus weird... And I can copy his answers during Maths... But now I do faster than him... But still, I can concentrate better sitting in my old place... I dunno what's gotten into that Ah Gua... When he sit behind Ben that time, he keep going like : "You see what I mean?" Den I ask him what? He say : "You and him..." and shake his head... Weird... When I explain something to Ben during Maths then Ah Gua will do that liao... They all say I "Flirting" with Ben... Swt... I flirt with him for what? And as he pointed out, who want to flirt with me? Right... I'm ugly and fat... Yeah, I know it... Plus he thinks I'm "man"... ^.^ I went and tried to kacau him on MSN... I put a smiley face like this : ^.^ and he ask me who I am... I told him I was Milaine, and he went like : "oh... LOL... SO MAN!" ^.^ Anyway... I got 35 over 40 for my science test... Objective... So did Ben... Ah Gua and FCD got 34... LOL... We almost got busted by Bala... We call Saito "saito" during Science class... Bala heard us and asked what we called him... Saito went like, : " They always tease me that..." And Bala asked what again, Saito said : "What he just said!" Pointing at Shawn Chin. When we were all about to get busted, I said : "Cytoplasm!". Then Bala said, : "He's the Nucleus of this class" and a bunch of shit... We just said nothing and played along... I saved our asses... So smart right! ^.^ Perasan. LOL... FCD is now the Tok Guru Otak Kuning of our class... Haha... Wee... FCD so bad wan... We had a retarded summary thing where we were told to read a retarded story and tell the summary in front of the class and that freaking O Lang Puan Rachel, and we had to choose a partner, I was with Claire, Chris was with Yan Qing, Ben with Pausen, Winny with Thiwya, Saito with Tikus, Hobbes with Timun, and Shawn, Wei Jun, Sean the Ah Gua and FCD were left. Bee Hong was feeling sick so she was excused... Anyway... FCD was gonna go with Shawn but that freaking Puan Rachel (Lan Jiao) said : "Yuan Loong, don't go with Shawn Chin." Cause she wanted to set Shawn up with Saito... Then she made FCD go with Sean the Ah Gua. Grr... Then Shawn Chin cry you know... I've never seen him that quiet... It was sad... In the end, that Lan Jiao put Saito with Tikus and said she was "pulling Shawn's leg". Yeah right. I hate that teacher the most. Ben Ee's gonna sing a duet with Winny... Oh shit... Not Ben, Ben Ee... His Bro. Ben Ee is like, so perasan... He sucks at singing. Honestly. But he thinks he very "Talented" and "Good"... Jeez... We're trying to get Winny not to sing with him. Especially Ben. Yeah! But it's not really working... Ben Ee sucks. His singing is like... The worst kind of torture... I had goosebumps while he was singing... We tried to show Winny what a mistake she was making by getting Ben Ee to sing Love Story and No Boundaries... Eww... We were all like "This is shit! Tell him to stop or I'll die..." But we didn't let him hear... We're not that evil... Hopefully Ben will be able to make him see that he sucks at singing... So we won't be tortured... By the horrible sound of his singing... Winny! Do a solo! You can't sing with Ben Ee!! Your performance will be a disaster!! Save yourself!!!

P.S. If he really IS gonna sing, I'm gonna record it and put it on YouTube. But I'll stuff my ears while recording it...

Lose The Fats!!

Hello... Good to see all of you... Yeah! I swam 10 laps at the pool today! Wee... I hope I lost some fats... FCD will never lose fats if he continues like this... I told him he can go swim at the Botanic Club anytime he wants but you know what the said? "I'm too lazy." You see! I mean, the membership costs RM10k PLUS monthly maintainence fee of RM77... Jeez... Talk about wasting... He has the bloody membership but he doesn't want to use it... =.=''' I went for the tutoring session yesterday... It was OK la... But like, weird la... XD I hate being a prefect... T.T Everyday have to go duty... Bored to death... But still... I have to be one if I want to get a scholarship next time... For university... So I'll just stay on... Wee... Iron Chef always wins... You notice? If the challenger wins, no one will watch anymore... I found Snail's [Ben Jing] Facebook a few days ago... Weird... I found it on Claire's Facebook... [Hint] [Hint] Wow... I didn't know Uncle Ben-Ee's christian name is Lance... And that he's 20... And has a complicated relationship... Cool... I just thought he likes She Teng but She Teng doesn't like him back... Weird... Is that complicated? I don't think so.... FCD has a complicated relationship... He likes Bee Hong and Yan Qing at the same time and can't decide who he wants to be with... Wait... Come to think of it... No... FCD's relationship is really simple... Compared to mine... But I'm not saying anything... ^.^ AxeDee... I didn't know Snail uses XD... Weird...

^_^

Ohaio! Everybody add my new email please... annoyingbugg3rzunit3d@live.com.my. ^_^ I dunno why I keep using that... *blur* Wee... Anyway... Claire's "hot aussie guy" is like, not hot at all... I saw his facebook... He looks rather nerdy... No offence... But still... Okay... Public Enemies is perverted... The movie... *...* Weird... It's a Saturday afternoon, and I ain't going anywhere... 'cept my mom's friend's house... LOL... I have to go for a tutoring session on Sejarah... *Blur* I spent the whole afternoon yesterday on Facebook after I came back from JJ. But nobody talk to me... =.=''' T_T Johnny Depp is weird... But whatever...

It's the weird girl again!

Hi everyone! I've started blogging again! Hopefully I don't give up on this one halfway again... ^.^ Anyway... Nothing much has happened... I've decided I'm too fat and must lose weight ASAP... I noe... You guys are probably thinking : "She only realized that now... Isn't it a bit late?" XD I noe I'm fat... So I must try to lose as much weight as possible... Wee... I'm weird... I got no books to read... Save me... I can't find those books...