Won't won't won't

I won't think about him anymore. I won't. Every time I start thinking about him, I'll go play my piano or read my books. So I won't think about him anymore... ... That guy from my old school is right, actually. Emotions are a weakness... So the best way to protect yourself is to not feel anything. Logic really. Don't feel anything and anything that happens won't affect you. Good? Yes. Don't ask. Really. I'm calmer now. Serenity and tranquility... As Claire would say... Perverse men... Useless buggers. Spin spin spin. Head gets dizzy. Skip skip skip. I go crazy. I am, really. Haha. Laughing at myself now.

Weirdness...

Really... Scary somtimes... It gets to you... I dunno why... I'm getting weirder and weirder every moment... I don't wanna go back to school and see Fish Lips and Ah Gua and all the people I hate... I just did my Sejarah... I dunno if I wanna decorate the Library or not, actually... Pet seems like he wants to... But I don't want to have to decorate it with Saito... It'll be scary... But that Pet say maybe... He dunno... I oso dunno... Dunno about TN... Saito sure wan to do wan... Haix... Decisions, decisons... My mom seems to be thinking about sending me to some self development thingy with FCD and Jason... I dunno if I want to or not... I just know that if I don't manage to play Marriage D'Amour flawlessly, I'll kill myself. My right hand is fine... It's just my left hand... I'm learning to play it myself... Without a teacher... I know how to play Secret by Jay Chou quite well already... Which is a great thing, cause I only got the song on Wednesday... I'm proud of myself... Now... Hopefully... Abraham Lincoln was a lawyer before he became President of the United States... Wee... I wanna eat peaches... But I lazy to open my can... I dunno how, anyway... Always FCD's kakak open for me wan... Lalalala~ I'm a sad person... I'm hungry... But I don't feel like eating... Having many new books to read does this to me... Hopefully I'll be able to lose some fats by this... ^.^ I have 2 more to go... I read The Demon Lexicon... That guy is weird... At least he's hot... And has abs... But I still love Tabi the most and hate that Ah Gua the most... Nice, huh? I feel like playing in the rain... I could lie under the rain forever... Cold... Wet... Alone... Best place for me... Besides bookshops... They're my most favourite places in the world... Quiet... No weird couples snogging between the shelves... No ripped books... Wee... Run around in the rain... But it's not raining... Sad... Twirl around and around... Get dizzy... No need to think about anything... Especially him... Anything but him... Just not him... My mind won't listen to me... I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT HIM!! Just not him... Not him... My heart breaks every time I think about him... I want a marshmallow... I only forget about him when I play my piano and read... That's why I read so much... I've been playing my piano a lot recently... As in, a lot... My mind is spinning out of control... Feeling sentimental... And melanchonic... Can't think straight...

I'm the worst person on earth.

I really am... I got Puay San into trouble... Wakakaka... I wrote about what she told me and Ash read my blog... So she scold Puay San... i just never say anything... I'm so evil... Weekeekeekeekee... Me, FCD and Jason formed a Hate Her club... The Brotherhood... Damn them... They can't resist callin me a "man"... Yestersday FCD's mom's Bday! We go restaurant eat... Sadly, no one bought a cake, so after the party Jason's mom, bro, sis and Ash go buy a cake... They said they wouldn't go to JJ... So we didn't go along... We were in my Akong's house... We stayed at home and watched I am Legend... Then when they came back, Ash was the 1st person to step into the house. She went like : "Hi! We're back!!" And guess what she was holding... A chocolate shake thingy... With the STARBUCKS logo on it! Then we were like, WTH!! They went to Starbucks! And didn't even buy anything for us! And you know what the worst part was?! She bought a freaking LARGE!! Even I didn't buy a large Caramel Macchiato with FCD's cash! I bought regular!! Then me, Jason and FCD got pissed and went upstairs to FCD's room to watch I am Legend on FCD's TV. We formed the Hate Her Club... And FCD said : "To the Brotherhood!" Shit! But one good thing is that they got Peach cake! I went downstairs to get cake for them... The peaches were go good... But the cake was like, dry. Ok lu... But not that good... Hey, look! The Ah Gua got RC! ... ... ... I'm not talking to him. Anymore... Forever... I hate him... Sign in when I'm not online la! Go die la you! Stupid Ah Gua... I got more books at JJ yesterday! Yippee! Wakakaka... I'm starting to sound like that guy from my old school... Weird... I didn't go swimming today... No mood...

I love cake...

Really, I do. And Blogger agrees with me. Cause there's this cake thing on top there with they're logo... I love to bake it and eat it. That's another reason I'm fat... Weekeekeekeekee... Yesterday I went to KLCC... So damn nice... We went by train with my mom's friend and her children. My dad never come. He had to work... T.T We went to that Petroscience thingy there... I go so many times liao. So, sorta sien lu... Lucky they never have those retarded experiment shows... I hate them... Then I go out early with my mom... Got a bunch of annoying malay boys behind us in the queue... Shit la them... Hate malays... Then I go Kinokuniya! Yes! I really love that place... It's like a heaven for me... I only got to get 5 books when the grown-ups say have to go home liao. Sad rite... I never even go upstairs to the music section... T.T But at least I got Syren... I'm gonna rub it in FCD's face later... Yesterday my cousins come stay over... Puay San and Puay Nee... Puay Nee sleep very early this time... Dunno why... She usually kacau us then sleep very late wan... Me and Puay San talk until very late... She tell me about the people in her school and stuff... I tell her about the Ah Gua... I tell her everything between me and the Ah Gua... Tell liao I feel better already... ^.^ Dunno why... For some reason... My bro bought some retarded comics called "Oka"... Like lame oni... He say very nice... Weird... The weird game cards that came with it are staring at me now... Just sitting on the table beside me... Creepy... You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night, you make me wanna hold you to the morning light... Paiseh... I'm listening to You Make Me Wanna by Blue... Last time kids that time always sing wan... Love it... I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight, you're the 1st and last ting on my mind... Oh... I lost it again... Paiseh... I told Uncle Ben Ee about the Ah Gua... I dunno if it's wise or not... But still... I have given up on that Ah Gua... So whatever lu... Now I got new books, so I'm happy... But I hate myself... That freaking book was THERE and I didn't notice it!! I'll never forgive myself... Ever... I read 3 books liao... 2 more to go... Lucky Syren thick... Or I will read all finish to fast... Sad right... Everybody in Ash's school knows she likes Jeremy... But he doesn't like her back... Puay San check with him liao. She got his hotmail from Ash's acc and ask him. He say he dun like her... Wakakakaka... WILL SOMEBODY COME ONLINE!!! THAT FREAKING AH GUA NEVER ON WAN! HE'S PISSING ME OFF! I FIX HIS FACEBOOK FOR HIM AND HE DOESN'T EVEN BOTHER TO GO ONLINE!! I HATE HIM!! DIE! DIE, ALL THE AH GUAS OF THE WORLD!! ... ... ... ... Sorry there. I'm just angry no one is online... Don't say anything...

Tralala~

Wee... I'm listening to Thanks For The Memories by Fall Out Boy... There are a bunch of evil stupid chimpos there... Then the guy smashing the equipment... Plus another MV of Fall Out Boy... With vampires... ^.^ Me hart! I'm gonna bake cakes later... 3, in fact... ... Don't think left or right... Think straight people... I'm baking them with my cousins... No, not FCD... My other cousins... Ash, Puay San and Puay Nee... (: Claire edited some photos of our family yesterday... My head looks so big in some of them... FCD's pic is on too... He was horrified... Ash is here too... In my house... Wakakakaka... Nobody online wan... That guy in my old school has to go to school... Cause he attends Hin Hua secondary... Sad guy... He yesterday sign in liao then chat wit me for 5 seconds and then his status set to busy... So I don't kacau him lu... His MSN PM all about not being weak, emotions are useless blah blah blah, yadda yadda yadda... Wait... I knew it!! He just doesn't want to admit it... Remember that GF who broke up with him? I think she got another BF already... And now that guy's really sad... Wakakakaka... My plant on Restaurant City is going to be harvestable in 30 minutes! Wee... I want my phone... But it's spoiled... ): Weekeekee... Haha... I'm psycho...

Facials are scary...

Seriously... I had my first facial yesterday... It was scary... FCD had one too... He keep laughing at me... He do before already, of course he not scared la... I first time you know... FCD have to do RM70 wan... Cause he so many pimples... He learned to shave! Wen Chien Kor Kor teach him... So his mustachio is gone... ^.^ The facial thing so geli... The person say my skin very nice... ^.^ I so biao ba... I took like 35 minutes only... FCD took longer than me... By a lot... His "pimple residue" all over his hair and his shirt... he do finish liao his hair in front all stand up... So funny... The pimple thingy was painful... Thank goodness I only a few pimples... Loong the worst... XD Me and Ash go next door kopitiam buy Teh Ais while waiting for him... Then we watch CSI there... Nice weih... I go my Banting Ah Mah house and photostat piano stuff... I finally found the song I was looking for... Plus Jay Chou wan... I got from my cousins... Wee... Finally... FCD was playing his PS3 yesterday... Look nice la that game... Infamous... Anybody hear before? About this guy... Got powers... Electricity... Can heal people also... The dust men look like the cartoon vulture oni... Ice Age that wan... Seriously... ^.^ I wanna cut my hair like boy... But scared I look weird...

We are the champions, my friends...

Hello... I'm back... It's weird... Yesterday I went to Sunway Pyramid and bought, get this, ONLY 1 BOOK. So I very bosong. I go and buy The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown... Ok la... But I like The Da Vinci Code better. I dunno why... But I do... Anyway... 2 days ago got a guy in my old school add my on Facebook. He very weird wan... ^.^ Paiseh if you read this, man... But I don't think he'll read. He dang lazy wan... :P I woke up at 9 this morning. My bro is watching that Sean on TV. You know?? That Sean on D.I.E. Again? The real Sean would be too Ah Gua to go on TV. To know more about the rest of us, go to my old blog. www.rainydaysmakemesmile-riptide.blogspot.com... (: Smile. I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS!!! Mr Darmesh send us those notes I still no mood to read. Paiseh Mr Darmesh. But I really don't feel like it. These few days me and my bro dug up our old Ping Ton comics and read again. ^.^ So nice. Yes! Sean just pushed his dad down the stairs! Haha. Now he's killing his bro... Cool...